May we unite in Jannah..n let me be the head of your bidadari

Salam buat semua..Actually yesterday was a special day for me and my munchkin..we celebrated our 14th wedding anniversary...yup 14 tahun tapi rasanya mcm baru semalam kami bertemu...dalam tempuh 14 tahun terlalu banyak dugaan dan cabaran yg telah kami lalui..terlalu banyak dugaan besar yg kami lalui bersama..but alhamdulillah dugaan2 tersebutlah yg telah menjadi pemangkin yang menyemarakkan lagi kasih sayang kami..and I thank Allah for one of his wonderful gifts to me..Both of us terlalu rapat..my mucnhkin is not only my hubby..he is evrything to me..there's no words which can describe my loves for him..he is always there beside me..tak kira dalam apa sekalipun ..he is always there to give me all the supports in everything that I do or venture into..walaupun seringkali dia tahu I mesti akan berubah hala tuju..and because of that dengan izin Allah segala apa yg I lakukan selalunya terasa mudah..



Both of us memang terlalu rapat...sepanjang tempuh perkahwinan I..belum sekali kami berjauhan wlaupun semalam..normally if dia ada tugasan luar...I will follow him..and begitu juga sebaliknya..kemana2 kami berdua..ha..ha..ha..and because of that I never pergi melepak bersama my girl friends..so does him...bagi yg tidak tahu, selalunya ramai yg mengatakan I queen control...ha..ha..ha..actually he is the one yg King Control...but he gives me all the freedom..but I choose not too..even waktu I bekerja di pejabat dulupun...everyday we'll go out for lunch date..and sometimes we'll had our lunch date in this one small hotel..there was once , one of his friends yg beristeri dua gave him a thumb up and whispered to him "tahniah u dah pasang dua juga"..kami senyum sahaja..kami masih lagi jalan berpimpin tangan walaupun hanya kepasar membeli ikan n sayur...makan bersuap walaupun diluar..and most of the times..if terserempak dgn rakan2 or his clients..ramai yg ingatkan I "perempuan simpanan" my munchkin...ada sekali we were having our snacks at Kluang Station in Tesco...one of his clients saw us and he joined us..my munchkin bangun untuk ambilkan i tissue..and this old guy tanpa segan silu boleh cakap.."I suka tenguk perempuan cantik macam u" (tang mana cantiknya pun I tak tau le...tu maybe ayat2 memikat)..I duk senyum aje le..dalam hati I berkata..mesti dia ingat i perempuan simpanan my hubby..When my munchkin sampai..dia bisikkan sesuatu..my hubby selamba jawab "Eh..this is my wife lah"...tersenyum sipu that guy..Yup, people always salah faham bila lihat kami berdua..normally bagi yg tak kenal kami, mesti ingat yg kami ni "pasangan kekasih gelap"..Pelikkan..just because we are behaving like husband n wife yg sepatutnya ramai yg tak percaya kami suami isteri..coz ramai pasangan suami isteri yg percaya bahawa buat apa nak tunjukkan kemesraan bila dah kahwin and terutamanya bila dah ramai anak and usia dah meningkat..Pada kami, semakin tua kami semakin rapat lagi hubungan kami..infact i'm missing him now..ha..ha..ha...he is at his office...Selalunyahe will always call me from work and i love to send him loving sms..telling him how i miss and love him..benda2 ni semuaya kecil saja..tetapi kesannya amat besar sekali..

To Allah, both of us berdoa..semuga dikekalkan jodoh kami berdua sehingga ke Jannah and let me be the head of his bidadari..dlm kegembiraan semlam menyambut hari ulangtahun perkahwinan kami..ada juga perasaan sayu..and he noticed it..he asked me why? Tak boleh keluar kata2 untuk menjawab his question but after being asked few times..with tears in my eyes..I told him that..I'm so afraid to face saat2 perpisahan abadi kami..I just can't imagine life without him and I pray hard that biarlah Allah mengambil nyawa I dulu..and he is free to kahwin lagi..I'm too scared even to imagine life without him..he hugged me and said that..."segala apa yg ada diatas dunia ini hanya pinjaman dari Allah...we just have to bersyukur yg Allah beri pinjaman yg terbaik pd kita..but satu hari nanti, samada kita suka atau tidak..kita harus pulangkan apa yang dipinjamkan oleh Allah. So smentara kita masih hidup ini, jgn persiakan segala kesempatan yg kita ada..coz we'll never know bila Allah akan mengambil pinjamanNYA"..Yup..i had already know that...and dah lalui this dugaan when arwah my mum pergi unexpectedly...my life totally changed..but as what he said..Allah telah mengambil balik pinjamn yg terbaik yg diberikan kepada I...and siapa I untuk marah...or menyalahkan takdir

By the way..jangan salah faham pula..all the pictures bukan gmbar kek...mesti ada yg ingat kek...semuanya bunga betul...kebetulan pula...mybe bukan kebetulan..actually bila kita dah terlalu rapat..we tend to berfikiran or mempunyai idea yg sama...mybe the telepathy yg terlalu kuat..normally when ever I nak tekan button phone to call my munchkin, my phone mesti berbunnyi..he is calling me..dlm banyak hal lain pun begitu juga..normally kami dapat meneka apa yg "disembunyikan"..Secretly i made an arrangement with my florist to sent him the bear basket..full with red roses and ferrerro rochets..and he also gave me almost the same thing plus my favorite perfume..the first perfume he gave me di awal perkahwinan kami..

To all readers..sorry to dissapoint u all kali ni...memang banyak kek yg i belum uploadkan lagi..but today I just want to dedicate this entry to my munchkin..he is my love..he is my soul..he is everything to me..and i thank you Allah for one of HIS wonderful pinjaman..and semuga both of us will be string andaikata satu hari nanti Allah menarik balik salah satu pinjamannya..but till that day arrives...I will try my best to treasure all the loves that we share...to my munchkin..I will love u till the end of my life..may we unite in jannah and let me be the head of your bidadaries...

OUR FAVORITE SONG ...MAKING LOVE OUT OF NOTHING AT ALL - AIR SUPPLY
I know just how to whisper,
And I know just how to cry.
I know just where to find the answers,
And I know just how to lie.
I know just how to fake it,
And I know just how to scheme.
I know just when to face the truth,
And then I know just when to dream.

[Verse 2:]
And I know just where to touch you,
And I know just what to prove.
I know when to pull you closer,
And I know when to let you loose.
And I know the night is fading,
And I know that time's gonna fly.
And I'm never gonna tell you ev'rything I've gotta tell you.
But I know I've gotta give it a try.

[Verse 3:]
And I know the roads to riches,
And I know the ways to fame.
I know all the rules and then I know how to break them.
And I always know the name of the game.
((But I don't know how to leave you,))
And I'll never let you fall.
And I don't know how you do it,
Making love out of nothin' at all. (Makin' love.)

[Chorus:]
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' lo-ah-ove.)
Out of nothin' at all. ((Makin' lo-ah-ove.)

Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' love.)
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' lo-ah-ove.)
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Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' lo-ah-ove.)
Out of nothin' at all.

[Bridge:]
Ev'ry time I see you all the rays of the sun,
Are streamin' through the waves in your hair.
And ev'ry star in the sky is taking aim at your eyes,
Like a spotlight. The beating of my heart is a drum.
And it's lost and it's lookin' for a rhythm like you.
You can take the darkness from the pit of the night,
And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright.
I've got to follow it, 'cause ev'rything I know,
Well, it's nothin' till I give it to you.

[Instrumental break.]

[Verse 4:]
I can make the run or stumble.
I can make the final block.
And I can ((make every tackle at the sound of the whistle.))
((I can make all the stadiums rock.))
I can make tonight forever.
Or I can make it disappear by the dawn,
And I can ((make you every promise that has ever been made.))
((And I can make all your demons be gone,))

[Coda:]
But I'm never gonna make it without you.
Do you really want to see me crawl?
And I'm never gonna make it like you do,
Making love out of nothin' at all. (Makin' love.)
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' lo-ah-ove.)
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' lo-ah-ove.)
(Ah-ah.)
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' love.)
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' lo-ah-ove.)
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' lo-ah-ove.)
(Love, lo-ove.)
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' love.)
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' lo-ah-ove.)
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' lo-ah-ove.)
(Love, lo-ove.)
Out of nothin' at aaaall.
(Makin' love.)
(Makin' lo-ah-ove.)
(Makin' lo-ah-ove.)
[Fade:]
(Love, lo-ove.)
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' love.)
Out of nothin' at all. (Makin' love.)
Out of nothin' at all...